Well this it, less than 24 left and I begin the journey of attempting to complete an obsession I have had ever since I was a child.

Last night as I went to bed, I was so tired, I thought I would quickly fall to sleep. However, within a few hours I was laying prostrate on the bathroom floor, spewing out my guts in the toilet and experiencing some of the worst “runs” I have ever had. In two years of intense traveling, this is the first time I have gotten sick like this. It reminded me of Nepal, where this went on for 12 hours and I was so cold and weak, I literally thought I was going to die. In this particular instance, I was sweating everything, but filled with chills. I laid there for 5 hours, going to bed when safe, only to come back within under an hour. The stomach pains were so intense, I even woke up Brad with my groaning. This morning I slept till 12 and am feeling better, but still have gut rot and fear eating. I am weak and need to replenish my system before tomorrow. But the worst part of it all, is that I simply cant fart anymore – that would be way too dangerous and I only have 4 pair of underwear with me anyways.

I question whether I am ready for this and if I should still continue with the climb tomorrow. What is the balance between rational thought and inner courage? I think I will error on the side of too much courage. The chance of death is minimal, but the chance of failure is high. I don’t think there is any consequence of failure here. That is only in my head. Does it make me less of a man? Less perseverance than others? Less determination? No, I don’t think so. You have to go out and give it your best and walk away knowing that inside you did all you could. If you don’t try you will never know, fear has simply been the very thing blocking you from trying. You are better off to have given it your best and tried, failing, rather than withholding yourself and never knowing.

Well by the end of this week – I will know. Gut rot, weakness or not – I am going to give it my best and never think twice about it.